Hi friends
I am pretty new to this blog world and this is my first attempt at the same
At the moment I am writing all this to take some advice from some unknown good souls of this world. I need help and do not know whom to ask for the same , so if anyone out there can, pls do the same
 I have been married since last 11 years and ours is a pretty nice match as others see it.My husband is extremely handsome while I am very ordinary looking. It is an arranged marriage and initially he was not willing to get in this alliance but could not say no to his father. 
Ours were two very different families but I tried to cope up my best and adjusted in his family and made space for myself.In his family it is not a very good idea to respect women but I adjusted to that. I am a very simple person with no huge requirememts and I have tried to support him and fulfil his responsibilities to the best of my capacity 
I feel I have given my maximum to maintain this relationship and have two small kids whom I take care of with a fulltime job
No matter how hard I try , something or the other happens after every 2-3  days which make him burst. After all these years, I dont know why I am  finding it so hard to forget the way he has beaten me up today even though that happens almost every week

I love him so much and he says I am shameless to love him when he hates me and does not want to see me.Its not that it is difficult to die but  I do not want my kids to suffer and I feel he also loves me.
I can not talk to any of my friends as they all know him n I do not want to insult him in front of anyone who knows us   
what shall I do?